You decided that you would be breach, you had absolutly no desire in the world to turn the right way, we tried to do inversion which I will say hurt like mad, you still did not want to turn. I was crying, your dad was crying, I had two doctors pushing for all they were worth on my belly and you were plain flat out stubborn, you where staying in place. Your dad watched the Denver heifer show while we waited for your little heartbeat to calm back down.
All your aunts came down to Oklahoma for "the arrival of Maggie." I was miserable, I never realized just how much my whole body would hurt everywhere, my bones, my hips, my muscles, everything hurt. It hurt to walk, it was uncomfortable to be, sleeping was getting hard, I was ready for you to come.
Finally the day came for you to enter this world, I will admit I was more than a little scared, we woke up early. Lori Ann curled my hair and I did my makeup. I was so swollen that my shoes wouldn't fit, I had to wear Em's boots to the hospital, I was swollen everywhere and weighed in at about 165 compared to my 120 before you came:)
We drove to the hospital, we were a little late as you can imagine:) They took me in and gave me an epidural, and then your dad came in looking a bit like a smurf all dressed from head to to in blue hospital garb. He held my hand while they cut you out, they had asked what our names were, we were not real sure on a boy name but thought probably Garret. Well out you came and the Doctor said, it's a Maggie Ann. I started to cry, heck I'm crying now, we were so excited you where hear. Your daddy left me and went right over to you and I think fell in love at that moment, he's been crazy about you ever since:) He called your grandma and said, "Mamma it's a girl, it's a little girl," he was crying the whole time. Everyone was pretty gagga over you, you where so anticipated and had plenty of love at the hospital waiting for you to arrive. Your dad didn't leave your side the whole time, they kept you in our room and he slept in a green rocking chair or next to us on the bed, he held you and loved you and was by you whenever the nurses took you out of the room.
You were a little odd looking character for a few days, your little neck was cramed from when you where in my tummy and your little ear folded over, I could feel your little head right up under my ribs for about the last two months. I look at you know, your eating while I write this, it is amazing that you were ever inside of me. I love you so much it is crazy:)
You were and still are quite the little grunter, you grunt when you wake up in the morning, you grunt when you eat, you grunt when your mad, you grunt all the time, you are not a quite little baby.
Your aunts and grandma demolished and repainted our bathroom while we were gone, it had been a terrible color of blue shiny wallpaper, when I came home it was crisp white.
When we left the hospital I had you all dressed your dad looked at you and said she really is somebody isn't she. You can't imagine how much he loves you.
I stayed quite doped up on pain killers, breastfeeding you hurt more than you can imagine, it's just to the point where it doesn't kill.
Your aunts, your going to love them, they are crazy about you, there is a letter from each of their names in your name, your a part of them and they are a part of you. They are such strong women and I pray that you will be strong like them, that you'll be the kind of woman that each of them are. I want you to know them, to love them, trust them and look to them as "your other moms." If you ever can't talk to me turn to them they are my very best friends and who I turn to whenever I need to talk. I bawled when they went home, big crocidile tears every time I thought about them even leaving. Michelle stayed out for for three more days after Lori and Em went home, mom stayed out for two more after that, I bawled every time I took one to the airport.
You have grown so much, your dad comes home and picks you up as soon as he walks in the door, he calls you his little pumpkin pie and has to show me every cute little face you make and listen to every little new sound. He hates your car seat and calls it your little prison, he informed me yesterday that he's going to soon be your favorite because I'm the one who puts you in it and he's the one who get's you out. Every morning he gets up with you and holds you, he said he never knew what his tummy was for until he had you but know he's fairly for sure it's just to hold you on. You curl your little legs up like a little stink bug. He'll talk to you for a few hours and then he tucks us back into bed and we go back to sleep, sometimes for a very long time:)
You are just starting to smile, we are going to have to finish this in a bit we've got to get lunch for your dad right now:) I love you Maggie, more than you know and more than I ever imagined possible. No matter how mad you ever get at me know that I wanted you before I ever knew you, you are my angel, I really believe that. I hope so much for you, I love you forever,
Jeannie
Your aunts and grandma demolished and repainted our bathroom while we were gone, it had been a terrible color of blue shiny wallpaper, when I came home it was crisp white.
When we left the hospital I had you all dressed your dad looked at you and said she really is somebody isn't she. You can't imagine how much he loves you.
I stayed quite doped up on pain killers, breastfeeding you hurt more than you can imagine, it's just to the point where it doesn't kill.
Your aunts, your going to love them, they are crazy about you, there is a letter from each of their names in your name, your a part of them and they are a part of you. They are such strong women and I pray that you will be strong like them, that you'll be the kind of woman that each of them are. I want you to know them, to love them, trust them and look to them as "your other moms." If you ever can't talk to me turn to them they are my very best friends and who I turn to whenever I need to talk. I bawled when they went home, big crocidile tears every time I thought about them even leaving. Michelle stayed out for for three more days after Lori and Em went home, mom stayed out for two more after that, I bawled every time I took one to the airport.
You have grown so much, your dad comes home and picks you up as soon as he walks in the door, he calls you his little pumpkin pie and has to show me every cute little face you make and listen to every little new sound. He hates your car seat and calls it your little prison, he informed me yesterday that he's going to soon be your favorite because I'm the one who puts you in it and he's the one who get's you out. Every morning he gets up with you and holds you, he said he never knew what his tummy was for until he had you but know he's fairly for sure it's just to hold you on. You curl your little legs up like a little stink bug. He'll talk to you for a few hours and then he tucks us back into bed and we go back to sleep, sometimes for a very long time:)
You are just starting to smile, we are going to have to finish this in a bit we've got to get lunch for your dad right now:) I love you Maggie, more than you know and more than I ever imagined possible. No matter how mad you ever get at me know that I wanted you before I ever knew you, you are my angel, I really believe that. I hope so much for you, I love you forever,
Jeannie
